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The DietChef Thing: Day 6

Hey everyone. Well, glad to say I'm doing a lot better than I was this time last night. I don't know that this is going to be a very long one, as today has really been pretty uneventful, but here goes.

The DietChef Thing: Day 5.

Hey. I know people read this, much as it amazes me, so, hope you've had a good day. Today I had my first serious melt down and it made me feel pretty shitty, if you want the truth, not proud of myself at all. No, I haven't given into temptation, but all the same, today was definitely a C minus, could do better.

The DietChef Thing: Day 4.

Have you ever heard the great radio drama serial Earthsearch? There's a bit in that where the two evil computers are brainwashing the four members of the spaceship crew, never mind why for the moment, and they're saying over and over, "You are normal, normal, normal, normal!" That's kind of how today feels. It's stopped being a big new thing now, it has started to become routine, it's started to become normal. That's not to say it's easy.

The DietChef Thing: Day 3

This is the kind of day when slips happen. The "I'm being a good girl, I'm starting the thing that will lead to a new me" glow is fading, something stressful happens, apart from that nothing much is going on, the aching, empty void inside starts getting annoying and you think oh, to hell with this, why am I doing this, I've only got one life for freak's sake! Then the temptation to either slip up or chuck the whole thing gets very strong. Did I give in, this early in the journey? I'm just in the mood to tell you.

The DietChef Thing: Day 2

It's time to get serious. Day two, we've got all the stuff, this time we buckle down and do this thing properly. Lady Willpower is in the driving seat and if L doesn't like it, she'll just have to lump it! Well people, after a shaky start I'm here to tell you it hasn't been half as bad as I was expecting, but this is only my first full day. Let's see what I'm like when I'm halfway through the second week and sick to death of healthy food, just longing for chocolate and pizza! Right, this won't get the baby a new hat, let's get on and do this!

The DietChef Thing: Day 1.

Well, day one, only not really. Today we have to wait for the box to arrive, we know it's coming today, only we're not sure what time until we get a text, so it's what I'd call a half and half day. I was half bad, half good today. Here's how it goes.

The DietChef Thing: Day 0

Ok. So this is day 0. With my increasing health problems and decreasing mobility due to a degenerating bone disease, I finally finally have to get to grips with my weight. I've always accepted my size, I've always carried far too much weight and worn larger size clothes, never envying others their slim figures, but now there's a problem. Clothes that should fit are getting tight. More upsettingly, my rings don't fit anymore, including my wedding set on my left hand. I feel ungainly and horrible and it's time to act.

Broken Links: Part of the Chain of Life.

Last night I had the most vivid dream. I was sitting here in my sofa corner, as I usually do, and the phone rang. I picked it up and a voice said: "Bear?"

Now this is odd for a start, as only my computer friends and my husband call me this nickname of recent years, and this was a voice I didn't really know. Anyway, I answered in the affirmative.

"You don't remember me do you?" asked the lady on the other end of the line.


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